Skwyr Court

makingfriends

Aonva and Roshil walked through the corridors of the castle. Aonva had been there for months and she still wasn’t used to it. She gazed up at the ceiling overhead and smiled.

“It took them a year to build the castle,” she said. “They had artisans working the whole time. While some slept, others were working. They enchanted defenses into it to keep away threats to the court. Then there were the magic doors. The Queen said she didn’t want a better library than she gave the people. It seemed silly to build two libraries, one for the servants of the court, and one for everyone else. Or two forges, or two schools, or two hospitals. So the High Artisan at the time had an idea to make the doors.”

She turned back to Roshil, who was smiling at her.

“Sorry.” Aonva looked away. “I was rambling again. I… I do that sometimes, especially when I’m nervous, then I keep talking until I’m not, but it never actually helps, so instead I keep talking and don’t stop, and—”

“Do you think they could’ve gotten the doors to work without having to carry our IDs with us?” Roshil asked, stopping her ramblings short.

“I doubt it. Only servants of the court can use them, otherwise it’d leave the castle vulnerable to attack. They had to enchant something, otherwise they’d have to enchant us, and that’s a lot harder. Besides, we can’t leave our rooms without them. Remember the magic doors at the north tower?”

Roshil made a face like she’d just eaten a lemon.

“Now you sound like Master Grund.”

“Sorry! Is that not going well? You seem happy with Our Lord High Artisan teaching you. I guess. I mean, I didn’t know you before that, so—”

“It’s fine.” Roshil grimaced. Aonva liked how expressive she was. She wasn’t afraid to express herself, the thought of which terrified Aonva. “We started knitting yesterday.”

Aonva had to stifle a laugh. She knew artisans needed to know how to make anything the court might need, but the thought of His Lord High Artisan — or Roshil — sitting around and knitting was too strange for her.

They didn’t have long before they both had class, but they had just enough time to explore part of the castle. While Aonva had wanted to spend their free time in the library, Roshil had dragged her along on “an adventure”. As Aonva studied more of their surroundings, she checked her mental map of the castle.

“This is… We’re near the west tower.”

“Yup.” Roshil pointed up ahead at the end of the corridor. A single door stood at the end. “Remember last week when you wondered about where the officers lived?”

Beyond that door were the private chambers of the six officers of the court and His Majesty, along with a meeting room. To say they’d be in trouble if they managed to get inside would be an understatement.

“I did, but we shouldn’t be here.” Aonva glanced back down the corridor for anyone coming.

Roshil glanced behind them, then crouched down to see the lock on the door. She inspected it for a moment, then produced a pair of long, thin pieces of metal from a pouch on her belt.

“Are those lock picks?” Aonva lowered her voice, fearing that raising her voice would cause one of the officers to materialize behind them. “Did you make those? Why did you make those?”

More questions flooded her head while Roshil remained silent. Why hadn’t His Lord High Artisan stopped her? Had he realized she was making them? He must have noticed them.

“Roshil.” Aonva pleaded with her friend. She didn’t want to know what would happen if someone happened to glance down the corridor and see them. They were exposed to another corridor not far away, save the lack of lighting in the area. Someone could spot them at any moment.

“My father says that if they don’t want you to get in, then they need to protect it better.” Roshil slid the pieces of metal inside and began to work them. “I’m surprised they even have a door. Why not a magic one that only they can use, like our rooms?”

“Who cares?” Despite her saying it, Aonva was wondering the same thing. She knew the officers’ families lived in the castle with them, but they could have baubles like the ones that let the apprentices use the doors out of the castle. Why have a door to their private chambers that could so easily be passed? They’d discovered that they couldn’t enter the other’s room. Was that why? Have a regular door so other people could enter?

She glanced back over her shoulder. No one was there. How had no one come by yet?

Aonva kept her eyes on the corridor. With luck, Roshil would get bored when it was too difficult. That didn’t stop Aonva’s heart from pounding in her ears.

“I know I asked about it, but I… I was just rambling. I didn’t think—”

“Ha!” Roshil leaped to her feet and pushed the door open. Despite the possible felony she’d just committed, she wore a grin like an excited child. “Told you I could do it.”

“How—”

“I grew up outside the kingdoms,” Roshil said as though it were obvious. “Cities didn’t always give us food, so me and my father would… improvise.” She pushed the door farther. “Shall we find the answer to your question?”

The two of them looked through the open door. Beyond it was another corridor, that ended with… another door.

The excited look faded from Roshil’s face. Like the magic doors in the rest of the castle, this one had no handle. In fact, it looked exactly like another magic door.

“The first one’s enchanted to make people ignore it,” a new voice said. “Obviously, it doesn’t work on some people.”

Aonva whirled around. All things considered, there were worse people to catch them breaking and entering.

“Apprentice Aonva, Apprentice Roshil.” Master Ekla stood with her arms folded. Behind her, a boy not much older than them wore an expression that looked sympathetic, yet implied he’d rather they be in trouble than him. “I’m sure this isn’t as bad as it looks.”

“Nope!” Roshil closed the door behind her. “Nothing to see except two apprentices learning about their new home.”

Master Ekla covered her face with her hand and sighed.

“One warning. That’s all I’m giving you. That door’s locked for a reason. I don’t want to catch you here again.”

“Then you and your apprentice shouldn’t be following us,” Roshil said, her voice taking on a slight edge.

Aonva was too stunned to express any emotion at that. Not only did Roshil seem to refuse to learn manners, but she’d accused a master of following them! Master Ekla wasn’t following them, was she? Aonva thought back on the past few weeks. She’d seen Master Ekla plenty of times, but not enough that she’d met her apprentice. Thinking about it, she’d never seen Master Ekla before she and Roshil became friends, but now she always seemed to be right around the corner.

Master Ekla glanced back at her apprentice. “Apprentice Kurgm.” The boy stood at attention. “This is Apprentice Roshil and Apprentice Aonva. If anyone asks, you didn’t see them here.”

Kurgm. Haven’t I heard that name somewhere?

“It’s really not that interesting,” Kurgm said. “The officers don’t spend much time in their rooms anyway. It’s mostly a bigger version of our rooms, split into smaller rooms for their families. Most of them don’t even bother decorating them.”

“Thank you, Apprentice Kurgm,” Master Ekla said. Aonva could hear her patience dying in her voice. “You two have arcane language class.”

“Because every good stalker knows her prey’s schedule,” Roshil muttered.

“We’re leaving.” Aonva grabbed Roshil’s hand. “Thank you for your kindness, Master Ekla.” She turned to Kurgm. “It was nice to meet you, Apprentice Kurgm.”

“We’ll run into them after class too,” Roshil said as Aonva pulled her away. “Completely by coincidence, I’m sure.”

Aonva didn’t slow down for anything until they’d passed through the door to the school and her heart had stopped beating so loud. She paused for a breath before going any further. She checked the time. They’d be late for class if they didn’t keep moving.

“We have to get to class,” Aonva said.

Roshil smiled and nodded. If Aonva hadn’t been there, she wouldn’t have known Roshil had been caught breaking and entering moments ago.

“I’m sorry we didn’t get to see it,” Roshil said.

“It’s really fine. Let’s just get to class.”

They went to class, trying not to run in their haste. When they arrived, they found they weren’t the only ones who hadn’t arrived yet. A few of the students from outside the castle weren’t there either.

They both took seats at the back of the room. Master Dordir waited until the last students had arrived before greeting them.

“Good morning, class.”

They all stood at attention and addressed him with a chorus of “Good morning, Master Dordir”. Once they had, they took their seats again.

He faced the board and wrote words for them to copy. Each one was an emotion. As Aonva copied them down, she filed them away in her head, wondering how she could use them.

While she was writing, she heard a noise. It was small, like a squeak or… a whimper.

She turned and saw Roshil staring at the board. Her body trembled slightly. Every few seconds, a whimper escaped her lips.

Then she screamed.

#VolumeOne #MakingFriends

Roshil fell out of her chair and stumbled back. She curled up and buried her head in her arms.

“Leave me alone!” she screamed.

Aonva stared at her. Her mind ground to a halt. She wanted to help Roshil. She wanted her to stop screaming, to smile again. Aonva loved it when Roshil smiled. Should she try running to her? Would that help?

Master Dordir ran across the room to Roshil. He checked her over, then covered his mouth with his hands. He whispered something, then blew on his palm. Snowflakes appeared and fluttered through the air on his breath.

A messenger spell.

“No!” Roshil backed away from Master Dordir. “No more! Please! Leave me alone!”

Roshil’s screams mixed with sobs. She trembled and recoiled from Dordir’s touch.

“Apprentice Roshil, can you hear me?”

Roshil didn’t answer. Aonva wanted to rush over to her friend’s side, but what then? What would she say? Would it make things better or worse? What if she only got in the way? What was happening? Why didn’t she know?

Roshil continued her fit until help arrived. Two people dressed in white tunics bearing a pattern of three green arcs arranged in a bigger arc, the symbol for the hospital.

Roshil hates the hospital.

Aonva could only imagine how upset Roshil would be when she calmed down and realized she was in the hospital. Should Aonva say something? Perhaps His Lord High Artisan would know what to do? Or Master Ekla? How was she not right there the one time Aonva needed her?

Before Aonva could make words come out of her mouth, the two attendants carried Roshil out of the room. Aonva watched her friend leave, then wondered if she could go with her. Maybe it’d be better if Roshil had a friend with her.

It’d be better if she weren’t there at all.

Master Dordir stood up and returned to the front of the classroom.

“Is everyone else alright?”

Aonva became aware of the whispers between people around the room. Many of them glanced back at her. She caught words like “crazy” and “wrong”. There was nothing wrong with Roshil, she’d been attacked. Even Aonva didn’t know most of the details. She suspected she wouldn’t know any of it if she hadn’t been there when Roshil learned about her condition. Aonva was always too afraid to ask.

That night, Aonva had been researching the origin of magic and the dragons that had taught it to humans. It made her smile to think that if she’d been anywhere else, she wouldn’t have bumped into Roshil. Or if she’d left, she wouldn’t have made a new friend.

Roshil’s eyes were hard to look at sometimes, and Aonva could feel a sense that there was something not quite right about Roshil, but her friend never cared that Aonva was different too. And no one else stood up for her like Roshil did (even if it wasn’t always helpful). Her parents had always dismissed her ramblings and ignored her questions.

The whispers died down, and Master Dordir continued with class. Aonva copied down everything he said. Roshil would need to know what she’d missed. While she was writing, Aonva looked over her notes, wondering what had set off Roshil. It had to have reminded her of the dragon, but what?

They’d been copying down words at the time. What word was it? She looked at the list while Master Dordir talked about the importance of understanding the words. They were emotions. Had the dragon used them a lot? Had it been part of the spell he’d put on her?

Shorarl (love), Melyuk (hate), Keska (hope), Valign (fear), Vorum (courage). The list went on, but she couldn’t tell what it had been without talking to Roshil. Was it safe to bring it up? What if she made it worse by asking? What good did it do either of them to know what had happen?

Aonva tried to put it out of her mind, but she was worried about her friend. Unlike Roshil, Aonva couldn’t do anything to help. Roshil didn’t always make a situation better, tending to have the opposite effect, but she tried. She was right there to stand up for Aonva, but when Roshil had needed Aonva’s help, she’d froze.

Aonva focused on taking notes. That would help a little, so Roshil wouldn’t have to miss anything.

If I’d done something sooner, maybe she wouldn’t be missing anything.

She hardly thought about anything else the entire time she was in class. By the time she was finished, she was determined to figure out what had happened. After class, she found somewhere out of the way and sat down.

She closed her eyes and went into her library. The massive, organized collection of books materialized in her head. It wasn’t perfect, of course, because it wasn’t real, but it was good enough that she could usually find what she needed.

She walked along the rows of books, heading for the same section she’d been in the real library the night she’d met Roshil. The section on dragons. Nothing else bothered Roshil. In the weeks Aonva had known her, nothing phased her. They’d been picked on by people in the corridors, everyone gave them both dirty looks, and she was sure Master Udra was carrying a grudge. But Roshil ignored all of it.

Unless dragons came up. She was uncomfortable talking about them. She’d growl under her breath while working on any classwork involving dragons. Aonva never asked about her attack, but there must’ve been something about it in the library. It’d been five years ago, she knew that much. So she must’ve read something about it.

She walked along the rows of books until she came to the section on dragons. Once she’d found where she’d put the history of dragons, she took the book and went through it in her head.

Years ago, she’d happened upon a book about remembering information. It’d said that anyone could remember anything, so long as there was a path to it in your head. Aonva had spent years working on it, and once she’d gotten good at it, she’d tried to absorb as much information as she could, filing away every piece of information she got her hands on.

She had information on the history of dragons in Skwyr Court, so there must’ve been something about a dragon taking someone prisoner. Magic wasn’t easy to do on the spot, even for dragons. It must’ve taken her somewhere, and someone would’ve written about it.

She picked through every piece of information she had, but she didn’t find anything on an attack on Skwyr in the last five years. Instead, she found attacks on other places. Nelaro Court, followed shortly by a brief reference to the Lapurela tribe, a group of nomads outside the kingdoms wiped out by the same dragon.

I grew up outside the kingdoms.

But when she reached for the name, she came up empty. It wasn’t there! Why wasn’t it there? Was it not in the real books? Had she somehow forgotten it?

Without the name, she couldn’t dig any deeper. She picked through everything else she knew, but there wasn’t much more than that. She still didn’t know what had upset Roshil so much. She was back where she started.

“Lapurela.” It was the arcane word for “family”. That name was something she hadn’t had before, but it didn’t tell her why Roshil was upset. She still couldn’t help her friend. Roshil had always tried to help her, even when she didn’t want it. When it was Aonva’s turn to help her, she was useless.

Maybe there’s a reason I’ve never had friends. Maybe I’m not supposed to have friends.

#VolumeOne #MakingFriends

Aonva dragged herself to Master Kaernin after class. As always, she found him waiting for her in silence. He watched her as she entered, waiting for her to talk.

“Rule One,” she recited, “Command the effect with absolute desire in the arcane language. Rule Two: Absolute desire requires absolute understanding. Rule Three: Don’t waste words.”

She’d read plenty of books about magic before beginning her apprenticeship, but never had she read those rules before. She understood how magic was supposed to work, but every book seemed to take paragraphs to explain what Master Kaernin had explained in a few sentences.

He nodded, then motioned for her to join him on the floor. She sat down in front of him, then he spoke words in the arcane language.

Aonva struggled for a moment, but slowly translated it in her head. He repeated it again to help her while she worked through it. When she was finished, she repeated it back to him.

It was a spell to create a small ball of light in her hand. When she’d first started learning magic, she was surprised by how precise it was. In this case, the exact size of the ball of light was dictated. Without being specific, it was impossible to understand the spell, and anything could happen.

She closed her eyes and imagined absolute darkness. The words rang through her head. She concentrated on them, on the darkness, on how the light would look. She prepared to cast the spell.

Echos of Roshil’s screams cut through her thoughts. She spoke the words, but her focus was gone. A spark appeared in her hand, but vanished moments after it appeared.

“I’m sorry! I don’t know what happened! I was trying, then… I don’t know what happened!”

Master Kaernin stared at her, waiting for her to try again.

She calmed herself down, then closed her eyes again. Before she could start reciting the spell, Roshil’s screams broke out again. She couldn’t block it out, but she tried. The light flickered again, but weaker than before. She tried twice more before Master Kaernin stood up.

She followed him out of the room and through the castle. She’d learned to pick up nonverbal cues from Master Kaernin. If he stood up, she was expected to follow. She didn’t ask where they were going; she’d find out eventually.

Today, they walked to the gardens. Families from all over the city were there, it being one of the many public areas connected to the castle. Children ran through the flowers, laughing together.

Why is it so easy for other people?

Aonva thought of Roshil again. Her only friend, the friend she’d let down. Why could other people have friends? Why was it easy for them? What was wrong with her?

They sat down on a bench together. Aonva looked around, but all she saw were plants and people. Master Kaernin usually gave her some kind of assignment or some task. What was she supposed to be learning? Was he going to speak, or would today be one of the many days he said nothing to her?

Time passed, and still Master Kaernin said nothing to her. Children came and went, but then she caught sight of a familiar face. It was Master Ekla’s apprentice, whose name Aonva had already forgotten. He walked among the flowers, smiling as he looked them over.

Master Kaernin spoke a single word: “Wait”. Then he stood up and walked over to the boy. He placed his hand on the boy’s shoulder to get his attention. The boy stood at attention, then Master Kaernin nodded at Aonva.

Aonva’s mind began to race. What was going on? Why was Master Kaernin directing Master Ekla’s apprentice to her? Did he know about Roshil breaking into the west tower? Did he know about Roshil screaming in class? If he did, why was he directing the boy to talk to her?

Master Kaernin left the gardens, and the boy came over to talk to her.

“Hi,” he said.

“Hi,” Aonva said, hoping to dance around the fact that she’d forgotten his name.

He smiled sheepishly. “I’m sorry, I forgot your name.”

“That’s alright. I… I forgot yours too.”

His smile turned into a laugh, then he motioned to the bench.

“Is it alright if I join you?”

“Sure.”

“I’m Kurgm,” he said as he sat down.

“Aonva.”

“Nice to see you again. Before you ask, Master Ekla didn’t send me here to check on you. I spend most of my free time in the gardens.”

“It’s only Roshil that thinks she’s doing that.”

The mention of Roshil brought with it the memory of class. Roshil was sitting in the hospital, alone, and Aonva was sitting here wasting time.

What if I make it worse?

“What’s wrong?” Kurgm asked.

Aonva sat up, having sunk in her seat.

“What? Why… no, nothing’s wrong.”

“Sorry, only… you look like something’s bothering you. Like your mind’s somewhere else.” He frowned then looked around. “Where’s Roshil? Is that what’s bothering you?”

“Well, right now, I’m wondering why my master just left.”

Kurgm glanced at the entrance, then back to Aonva. “I… I don’t know, he didn’t say anything to me, just pointed me over to you. I guess he wants me to talk to you, but… I don’t know why. I mean… every time Master Ekla tells me to talk to someone, it’s because they need help. As a knight, I’m supposed to be able to help anyone in trouble, so when I’m directed to someone sitting alone, it’s because I’m supposed to help them. Except that… I’m not really that good at it.”

Thoughts of Roshil stuck in her head. No one could help her.

“I don’t think you can help me.”

“I might be able to if you tell me what’s bothering you.”

He watched her, waiting for her to say something. For once, Aonva wasn’t in the mood to talk.

“Alright, I’ll start. Master Ekla wasn’t following you today. I don’t think she’s following you at all, she’s just worried about Roshil. Today, though, I told her someone had broken into the west tower. She immediately assumed it was Roshil and ran to get there before anyone else knew about it. Luckily, we weren’t far.”

“What? How did you know?”

“There’s a spell on the door that alerts anyone in the castle that lives in the west tower when that door’s opened.”

Aonva sank in her seat again. She couldn’t believe it; every officer knew they’d broken in. No, he said he’d known “someone” had broken in, which meant they hadn’t know who it was. And how did he know at all? He didn’t live in the west tower, did he? He couldn’t, he wasn’t an officer, unless… was he family to one of the officers? She didn’t think any of them had family. Roshil had mentioned Lord Grund being married once, and she was pretty sure Lord Velal had a wife, but she didn’t think they had children. She’d always assumed the officers were too busy for families.

“How did you know about it?” she asked.

“I used to live in the west tower. They still let me go inside.”

“But—”

“Your turn. What’s bothering you?”

She knew when someone was dodging a question. She’d done it any time Roshil had asked about her parents. It was one more thing that kept them apart, that proved Aonva wasn’t a good friend. Even Roshil had mentioned something about her parents from time to time. She never mentioned her mother, but she talked about her father and brother often enough. As Aonva had learned today, her father could pick locks.

“Well… Roshil started screaming in class today. I don’t know exactly why, but I have an idea. We were copying down words in the arcane language, and she started screaming, shouting for everyone to stay away from her. And I… I froze. I couldn’t do anything! I just sat there, watching my only friend getting scared, and then they took her to the hospital, and I still didn’t do anything. I didn’t ask to go with her, I didn’t try to calm her down, I just sat and stared.”

By now, tears had formed in Aonva’s eyes. If dwelling on it had made it worse, reliving it was making it unbearable. Then finally, the thought she’d been having for an hour broke free and manifested into words.

“Maybe I’m not supposed to have friends.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Kurgm asked. “Everyone can have friends. I grew up in the castle, and even I had friends.”

Aonva buried her head in her hands. Kurgm was right; he wasn’t good at this. Now she was sure something was wrong with her.

“What I mean is… my parents weren’t there, so the servants looked after me. They’d let me into the kitchens after curfew, give me dessert early, or get me warmer blankets if I was cold.” A grin spread over his face. “We used to play hide-and-seek in the castle, but I was bad at it. I always chose the same few places.”

Aonva’s mind drifted back to Roshil as Kurgm spoke. The only friend she’d ever had, and she’d let her down.

“Maybe I shouldn’t have friends.”

Kurgm didn’t say anything for a moment. He shifted in his seat, fidgeted, but didn’t say anything. Then he opened his mouth.

“It’s never that simple. Just because you froze, it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have friends. You care about her still. That’s something. There’s a reason you froze.”

“Which is?”

“I don’t know, and it’s none of my business anyway. That’s for you to find out. But you’re not going to figure it out in one day. You may never know. But I know it’s not something simple, because things like that are never that simple.”

As Kurgm talked, his expression changed. The goofy smile slid into a frown. His gaze was distant. Aonva was sure he was remembering something.

“You’re better at this than you think,” Aonva said.

The goofy smile returned to Kurgm’s face.

“Am I? Someone should tell Master Ekla that.” He nodded toward the door back to the castle. “Go see Roshil. I’m sure she misses you too.”

“What if I make it worse?”

“Just being there will make her feel better. It’s what I’d want my friends to do.”

Aonva still didn’t have answers she wanted, but something told her Kurgm was right. Maybe she wouldn’t know. But one thing she did know, was that her friend was still all alone. Master Kaernin was gone, so she was free to do as she wanted. And she wanted to see Roshil.

“Thank you.” Aonva stood up. “Thank you for your help.”

Kurgm nodded toward the entrance to the gardens.

“Go on. She’s waiting.”

Aonva turned and left the gardens. She made her way through the castle. She was still scared, but there was every possibility that she could make it better.

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Aonva walked through the door to the hospital. The tingling she got passed, and she walked up to the reception desk.

“Excuse me,” she said, then waited for the woman at the desk to look up at her.

“Name?” the woman asked.

“Apprentice Aonva. I’m here to see Apprentice Roshil.”

The woman looked through her notes, then wrote down something.

“Room 216. Don’t stay long. Don’t set her off.”

“What might set her off? What’s that mean? Can I still talk to her? I just want to see her. Is it safe for me—”

“Room 216.” The woman finally looked up from her paperwork. “She’s been asking for you since she woke up.”

Aonva still had more questions, but she shoved them down and nodded.

“Thank you.”

Aonva left the desk and walked up two flights of stairs. She walked down the hall, following the signs.

210. 212.

While she walked, she thought of the woman’s words. What if Aonva made it worse? What if she said something to upset Roshil? How did Roshil manage to be better at this? Roshil wasn’t the best at communicating, but at least Aonva knew Roshil cared. Was there something wrong with her?

Of course, there is. I grew up surrounded by arguing.

She stopped when she reached room 216. She stared at the door, fear sliding through her head. She could imagine all the ways it would go wrong. Without knowing what had set off Roshil in class, there was no telling what might set her off again.

She’s been asking for you.

Aonva closed her eyes and knocked on the door.

“What?” Roshil snapped from behind the door.

“It’s me.”

The door creaked open. Aonva pushed passed it and into the room. It was a little bigger than their rooms, which only had space for a bed, drawers under the bed, and a small washroom. At least this one had chairs were she could sit.

Roshil lay on the bed, her back to the rest of the room. She rolled over, and Aonva saw the telltale signs that Roshil had been crying.

Aonva pulled one of the chairs over to the bed and sat down.

“What happened?” Aonva asked.

“You saw what happened.” Roshil pulled her sheets a little higher. “I screamed in the middle of class.”

“I know, but why?”

Roshil’s eyes darted around the room. Aonva thought she was searching for something, but soon realized that Roshil was avoiding eye contact.

Valign.”

Aonva frowned, pulling up her notes from class in her head.

“The arcane word for ‘fear’?”

“What about it?” she asked when Roshil didn’t say anything more.

Roshil tightened her grip on the blanket. Tears welled up in her eyes. Panic hit Aonva, and her mind spun out of control, desperate to understand what she’d done.

Then she realized something simple. It didn’t matter. Maybe the dragon had used the word for fear. Maybe that was part of its name. If she understood now, she might make it worse anyway. What mattered was that Roshil was there, and she needed her.

“I’m sorry,” she said, struggling to think of something better to say. She had to calm down Roshil, but how? What would normal people do? Ask their parents? She couldn’t call upon wisdom of her parents, they’d never helped calm her down.

My parents were never around.

Kurgm had helped her. How? What had he said to make her feel better? It’s never that simple. That didn’t apply here. What else had he said? Aonva ran through their conversation in her head, but came up short. Was she overthinking it? Maybe she was. What if that was it? Stop overthinking.

“It can’t hurt you here!” she blurted. “A dragon tried getting into the court 12 years ago, but she didn’t make it far. Lady Enrakal, the last True Knight, stopped her almost single-handed. And His Majesty wouldn’t let a dragon get through, either. Some people say he’s the most powerful person alive. Of course, he’s a master in all six specialties, that’s what you have to do to become king. Or queen, of course. You probably knew that. I think you’re a lot smarter than you want people to think you are. Like me, really. I hate getting attention. That’s why I don’t want to get into trouble. I don’t know where I’m going with this, I’m just really scared, but I want you to know it’s safe here. Besides, Master Ekla would never let anything happen to you, and even though Our Lord High Artisan doesn’t say much to anyone apart from you really, I think he’s got more defenses on the castle than he admits to. Or, should it be ‘to which he admits’? I don’t know, I’m just talking. Is this helping? I’m annoying you, aren’t I? My parents hate it when I talk too much. They’re decent people, even if they argue all the time. I think they can’t stand each other, even if they’re both too stubborn to split up. I don’t know why I’m telling you this, maybe because you’re my only friend, and I feel awful about not saying or doing anything. Please say something.”

Roshil didn’t say anything when Aonva finally stopped herself. She sprang out of bed and threw her arms around Aonva. Aonva felt tears on her neck as Roshil buried her face in it.

“Thank you,” Roshil said through her sobs.

Aonva didn’t know which part of that had made Roshil feel better. All it’d done for Aonva was make her feel embarrassed. Her stomach was full of butterflies, her hands shook, but she put her arms around Roshil all the same.

“You’re my best friend, Roshil,” Aonva said. “I… I’m just not good at making friends. I… I’ve never had friends. I’ve only had books and information.”

“I was scared,” Roshil whispered. “That’s what he does. He makes you afraid of him. He…” She shook her head, which was still buried. “I don’t… I can’t…”

“You don’t have to say anything. He… His Majesty won’t let him return. You’re safe.”

They sat together in the chair, curled around one another. Roshil’s tears subsided, but still neither spoke. Aonva wanted to keep reassuring Roshil, but she didn’t think she needed to say anything.

Don’t waste words.

Aonva didn’t know if her ramblings had helped her friend, but she knew one thing. She’d applied for apprenticeship because she’d wanted to learn everything. Maybe even get away from her parents. It’d never been about helping people, but now it was. Now she wanted to put everything she knew to work. She would make sure that no dragons… that nothing ever attacked the kingdom. She would make sure Roshil felt safe.

#VolumeOne #MakingFriends